Planning For An Attempt ? Better Read This First.

“Result – Failed, Life – Passed”
“Betrayed lover hugs death”
“Harassment Victim complaints to death god”
“Depressed employee joins the suicide squad.”

DEATH : A five letter word. Hotter than the Sun’s core, colder than the Pluto’s surface. Generally occurs in two ways : Naturally and Intentionally. But comprises of only one meaning : END OF LIFE.

We all know what death is. Then why I’m describing it ? Why I’m defining it ? Because some of our friends are misconcepting it. And that misconception is SUICIDE.
Everyday there’s a trending article on Facebook or Twitter with #tag BlahBlahSuicide. And that’s what the above headlines are about. Well sucide is not an easy step to follow. Also it’s not a heroic attempt.

The victim must be so depressed, so killed by the life, so insulted by their own guilt and many so scenarios in their mind while they were trying to make the move. Seriously is it a solution ? How do they figured it out that the life beyond that full stop is full of joy, a life with no sorrows ? Is there and answer to these questions ?
Absolutely no. There are no answers to these questions.

But did they know that they were being selfish ?
Selfish ? Seriously ? In which way ?
You may think I’m cracking a joke on such a serious topic. Believe me. I’m not. The very moment when the idea of applying a full stop in front if their journey came into their mind, they started being selfish. The moment when they picked up that phosphorus tablet, the moment when they tighten the rope on the neck, the moment when they slid the table below their feets they were being selfish. They didn’t thought of their loved ones. They didn’t had any idea what will the brother’s, father’s, mother’s, sister’s condition when they will see them hanging, releasing that white froth out of the mouth. What will be their condition when they will light the corpse ? Corpse not only of their loved one’s. Corpse of their ambitions. Corpse of their dreams. It all will be dead in a moment. And they think the step they are taking will be in the favor if their family.

Suicide is not a solution. There’s no problem in the world larger than life. The culprit who is yet to be arrested will not be awarded a heavy imprisonment by ending up one’s own life. 1 year, 2 years, 3 years or 10 years, they will be out once the confinement is over. To the core, it will be the victim who washed up their life thinking about the society. The society who is always unaware of you. They don’t know what you ate in the lunch or what are your dinner plans. And they care about that society ? They will forget what happened to you. They will be normal as regular in the very next moment. The family is the only one who is concerned about you and in the end it will be the family which will no longer be normal as ever.

Planning for an attempt ?
Go for it.
Plan your empowerment.
Plan your wit.
Plan to let down your sorrow, your pain.
Plan to become a better person than before.
Because suicide is not an option. It’s a full stop.

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Superiority Complex

“Muneevar, Where the hell are you dumb idiot ?”
“Coming Madamji”
“I’m calling you from last 20 minutes. Where were you ?”
“Madamji I was…”
” Stop making excuses. Go and see if the clothes are back from laundry or not.”

It may look like a normal conversation between a proprietor and her servent but believe me it’s not. In humanitarian point of view, it’s not a normal conversation. Actually it’s not a conversation. It’s humiliation. Any act which harms someone either physically or verbally is humiliation.

Wait !

Isn’t it how some of us treat our servant ? And why only servant ? The sweeper, the garbage collector,the peon and many more like them. No matter how they feel, they do their work even though they are illtreated by some members of the literate, educated society.
But why ? Why do they do this ?
Because they think they are superior. Superior in every way, money, property, social status, lifestyle. But what’s the benefit of such superiority which awards you right of insulting someone.
Many people call it superiority. I call it superiority complex, like inferiority complex. Unlike Inferiority Complex which is a state of mental illness, It is mentality. Mentality which let you think that you can squeeze anyone inferior to you under your thumb. Money, social status gives you power, not the right.
Remember, they are in this state by their fate. Not by their choice.

So ask yourself. Are you suffering from The Superiority Complex?

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Rejection

There he was. Lying on bed. Totally unconscious about the outside world. He was in coma from last 1 year.
There she was. Sitting next to him. Absolutely aware of the world and reason for his unconsciousness. She was in trauma from last 1 year.

Seems like it happened yesterday only. Again she went into the deep flashback. Flashback of their affection, relation and her rejection.
They met at a social gathering of a mutual friend of theirs. His presence was a must as he was the best friend of her best friend. Yes there’s a difference between “he best friend” and “she best friend”. They were introduced and according to her he was an adorable person. In that short meeting they both had a good time. With a promise of meeting again, they left.
One day while juggling through her news feed she got a notification. It was a friend request from him. After a quick game of yes no yes no she accepted his request. Then started a continuous flow of texts. Some made her giggle, some made her laugh out loud. They exchanged their numbers too. So now their text converted into speech. In this way, the new friends became good friends.

One day during a conversation he proposed her. Even though she liked the way he proposed, she denied. She like him as a friend but never thought of relation. It took him 3 days to text her back. The chit-chat started again but not like the previous ones. She realized that he is not that intresting now. He’s losing his path. Every text, every call they had seemed her like boring intrest. Yes she was losing her intrest in him. In this way one day she at last stopped talking to him. He sent numerous texts, called a hundred time. But everytime he gets only disappointment.

It’s been around 6 months after the last text he sent. It was Christmas day and she got a message wishing her Merry Christmas. She was unable to recognize the number. She asked who’s this ? A mere silence took place in the era of loud music and celebration. It was him who wanted to start all this with new beginning. He used to think that she was angry due to some reason. He thought it’s been 6 months after the last message. She might be normal now. But this “who’s this ?” killed him bit by bit. All the hope and expectations were drowning with every second.
It was mid February when she was hanging out with her friends. While crossing the road she accidentally dropped her phone mid way. When she leaned down to pick up her phone someone pushed her hard. The very next moment she was on the side and someone was lying on the mid road. When she gained her consciousness she moved towards the person who was there and shocked by the scene. It was him. Covered with blood and people all around him. Now she realized why she felt a hard push. While picking up the phone a speedy car was approaching towards her and he saved her. But in return he was injured badly.

She was in the flashback then suddenly the medical equipments around started beeping loudly. She called the doctor. He was losing his breath. His pulse was dropping. The heart beat was continuously decreasing and………………

It’s was her who accepted his friend request. It was her approached to meet him. It was her who drowned his expectations, his hopes.
It was her who was waiting for him to gain his consciousness, it was her who wanted to apologize. It was her who wanted him back.
But this time it was him who rejected her.

The Silent Scream

No text since last december. No call since last november. Didn’t met since last july. But you still remember them even when you didn’t have a minute glance of theirs from a long time.
Why so ?
Why do they still acquire a noticeable amount of space of your mind palace and especially your heart ? Why do you care for them when you know that they don’t give attention to your existence ?
Answer. It’s pretty simple. It’s your bond. Even if it is one sided. Everyday your heart steps out of your chest and walks to their doorstep waiting for the moment when the door opens. With a hope. You know when the door opens you have to face that harsh look. But all you want to do is to hug them hard like you are never gonna let them go.
The real question arises here is that is there any possibility ? The person who keep on ignoring the texts, calls, is still interested in meeting you ?
No. You’re dead my friend. For them you were never there. They don’t care whatever your condition is. No matter how good friends you both were earlier. Now there stands a silence and a scream. Whatever high decibel the scream reaches. It will be overrided by the other one’s silence.
And the irony is, you do know this. You know there’s no more scope of bonding up again. Your mind knows the truth but heart always denies this. You still wait for the day when they will come back, apologize for this rejection. But it’s never going to happen. They moved on. Then why not you ? It’s just a mind game.
The day when your mind will realize that it’s all just a bunch of false hopes, that day your feet will make a step themselves.
That day you will attain salvation from this world of false hopes, fake people, fake friendships. That day will be your new birth.
So go.
Step out.
Explore yourself.
And let them go.